"Wedding of the month

27 Dis. 2008 - a very meaningful date to my cousin, Dr. Kamil. After quite a long time waiting for this great, meaningful, romantic moment...here it came. Met a nice lady to end up his single life and create a more enjoying and happening life with sharing, loving, understanding,sacrificing and a lot more.


Congrats Abg Kamil. Pretty sure Pak Ngah and Mak Ngah are smiling up there in heaven.

Me and cousin Anem were given two simple duties yet, tiring (^_^) - welcoming the guest and taking the presents. Panas wey! Hahahah' but still satisfying coz at least we contributed something for the brides and the family.

Attending and committing in this kind of event really annoying when 'people' begin to question when is our turn...especially me! Aduh! Ya la...me and Anem were the most busy and the most attractive (hahahhaha' perasan jap! ;P ) human being on that day standing, sitting and waiting at the entrance welcoming the relatives and guests. And what more, I am older than Anem. Herm....tahan telinga je la. Coz, I dont really have the answer to that killing question- Bila turn Hanim pulak? Calon orang mana? Adus.... Luckily Anem was there. Cover la skit. Hahahhaha.....

But one thing for sure I felt so happy to see is the happiness on Abg Kamil's face...and his true color- romantic. Knowing him as a very simple guy and soft- spoken but reserved, make my heart touched and melted (hahahaaa') seeing romantic moments between him and his wife. Sooo romantic. Im happy for you guys. Pray to Allah, may Allah grant both of you happiness 'di dunia dan akhirat'. Ameen.


***When is my turn?***

"Life is beautiful

Im happy today.
Early morning, I managed to create smile on my beloved family's face.
They arrived from Kedah last night.
It just a breakfast - a simple nasi lemak.
But still, I feel happy I did that to them.
Not asking for anything in return... just honestly wanted to see them happy.
Maybe, today... that could be the only best thing I could do.
Maybe, there will be no more tomorrow.
Who knows. Allah knows well.

"My dull day

Today, a mixture of weird emotions attacked me.
Quite colourful, yet dull.
It's weird...strange...mystery.

Kinda tired also.
Luckily, two events went well...'ok la' according to my boss.
Boss also was not in a good mood...affected me a bit.
"Relax boss! Keep smiling. It's good for ur health." heeeeeeeeee...

Next week, got so many holidays.
Don't feel like taking off even I do need that.
Staying at home, doing nothing....herm...

Going out? Malas.

O ya! My parents will come to KL..got cousin's wed ceremony.
Wedding?
Herm.....when is my turn? Aunts, sister keep asking that.
Relax babes.... i'm just 25. "Yet to live life to the fullest" - a fren said.
Hahha.... kalau kawen tak leh live to the fullest kah??
At least, got partner to share the life and make it full of lively things.
Rite? :)

Now, my lil boy keep disturbing me. Asking for the broandband to watch Transformers. Aduuh.... K, that's all for now. ;)

"Why?

Lately, so many questions keep playing in my head. Kinda dizzy a bit..haha. But sometimes, it's fun.

WHY? - Why this thing happened? Why it happened that way? Why me? and a lot more...
Regardless how hard I've been trying to find the answer, the absolute answer that I got is
'I Don't Know'. Really got no idea at all.

Mystery. That is the idea that I have as for now.
It is so mysterious in knowing why certain things happened and it happened that way.

Then I heard a voice saying a simple words - 'Let it be, Anys.'
Sometimes, whatever happen in our life doesn't have any answer to it. It just happened.
Without you having to think hard or even crack your head in searching the answer.

Many things in life is subjective. It is abtract and artistic.
Bottom line, sometimes it is hard to describe, to explain or even to clarify it.
Sometimes, we just don't have to understand it but just to accept.

***Fuh....still the 'why' question keeps buzzing in my mind.

Then, I begin to give up. Let it be, Anys. Only Allah knows the answer.
The more you've been trying to understand it, the more you will be lost.
So, take it easy. Let it be. Coz, one day that mystery will faded away then gone with the wind.
That's the reality. Nothing last forever.
As for now, just live with it. Learn from it.


** I learn from the best... and I learn from you **

"Kerja la... apa lagi................

La La La Laaa… La,
hari-hari kerja!

La La La Laaa…
Bosan dengan kerja, haha!

La La La Laaa… La,
hidup harus kerja, kerja!

La La La Laaa… La,
hari-hari kerja!
La La La Laaa…
Bosan dengan kerja, haha!

La La La Laaa… La,
hidup harus kerja, kerja!

Ooh! Terpinga-pinga

Tak puas lagi beradu, mengantuk

Subuh hingga senja
Ah! Hari-hari sama saja
Ah! Nak bancuh kopi

Tapi gulanya tiada, minum saja

Kerja bagai nak gila

Ah! Tak juga kayaaa!

La La La Laaa… La, hari-hari kerja!

La La La Laaa… Bosan dengan kerja, haha!

La La La Laaa… La, hidup harus kerja, kerja!

La La La Laaa… La, hari-hari kerja!
La La La Laaa… Bosan dengan kerja, haha!

La La La Laaa… La, hidup harus kerja, kerja!

Gelisah, kugelisah
Mengenangkan masa depan
Kuharus kerja

Oh! Mesti kerja

Tiada apa yang percuma

Realiti jika tiada kerja

Oh! Papa kedanaaa!

*ni memang gelisah sungguh. sejuk membeku tahap dewa duk dalam bilik `mind cracking'.

*tea break time...lega wey! fuuuhhhh...

hahaha... it's not that stressful actually. But somehow this song does describe our life for the last 3 weeks...worked for 7 days a week and 14 hours per day.

But now, relaxing time! as for now lah! a lot more to come...huhuhu...

"The art of nature

i love nature

~ianya bisa buat ku tersenyum

~taken by Qasehputeh

| dear Ibu...

Dear Ibu...
You are the only Ibu that I have in life
Nothing or even no one can replace you
You are the best role model ever
The most mentioned by Allah s.w.t and Rasulallah s.a.w as someone who sould receive
full respect, sincere love and attention


Ibu...
Betapa bertuahnya aku menjadi anakmu
Dikandung selama 9 bulan dengan penuh keperitan
Malahan diberi kasih sayang, perhatian tanpa jemu mahupun letih
Tidak pernah Ibu mengabaikan aku dari segala hal
Bertuahnya aku, Ibu...
Aku ingin Ibu tahu betapa aku bersyukur memiliki mu, dijagai mu, dikasihi oleh mu....


Ibu...
How I wish you know that I've been trying so hard to be the best for you
To be the one who you can count on
To be the one who can make you proud, happy, relief
To be the one who can make you smile all the time


Tapi Ibu...
Aku tak punya kudrat yang kuat tuk selalu bahagiakan mu
Aku kecewa, Ibu...kerana mengecewakan mu
Aku sedih, Ibu... kerana buat Ibu menangis
Hancur luluh hati aku, Ibu...tak dapat buat Ibu tenang dan senyum selalu

Ibu...
Im not an angel
Im just an ordinary daughter with many weaknesses
I've been trying my very best to fulfill all your dreams and wishes
Coz I know and believe you just want the best for your daughter
And your prayers can make all those dreams come true

Ibu....
Aku juga punya impian dan harapan
Bukanlah mudah untuk aku mencapainya, Ibu
Banyak dugaan dan ujian terpaksa aku hadapi
Bertambah perit juga bila mana impian dan harapan ku tidak seperti apa yang Ibu inginkan
Lagi sekali hancur luluh hatiku, Ibu

Ibu...
Dare not to have any intention to hurt your feeling
Or even to make you sad
But, I keep doing all those things that make you sad
Please forgive me, Ibu
I also have my own dreams and hopes
How can I fulfill all my dreams without ignoring even one of your dreams
What should I do Ibu?
I need your guidance
I need your advice
I need you to be, not just as a mother, but also as a friend,
who I can share everything to lessen the burden in achieving my dreams
What should I do Ibu?

Ibu...
Andai dapat aku luahkan rintihan hati ku ini pada mu Ibu
Andai dapat Ibu faham akan segalanya......................................................

***Dear cousin A**m,

Im not the best in advising you regarding this issue

Even me myself facing this unpleasant situation

But, one thing I could say;

"Cherish and love our Ibu while we have the chance".

-RIP

| a new chapter of life

Alhamdulillah... Allah gave me one more day to live, to smile, to love, to cherish everyone in my life. Past is passed. I gotta look forward in order to live...and learn to appreciate and cherish what I ALREADY have, not keep searching wut I YET to have. But then, no escape. That's somehow the nature of human being.......

W*ni Will...aku kena present dlm Bacara Ilmu today...hahahahah...Kepimpinan dalam Organisasi Menurut Kaca Mata Islam.. ok tak? *Boring! Pergh!

To N*ra Si Gadis Pemantun...all the best babe! Make `them' proud of you...

Cas!!!! ;D
~ Tuai padi antara masak..
Esok jangan layu-layuan
Intai kami antara nampak...
Esok jangan rindu-rinduan. - Ape connection? Entah! Heeeeee...

"Just want you to know who I am...

Gosh! Watching this fav Ost of mine really trigger my desire to play guitar again...huhuhu..miss those of the days...

"Served me rite

I'm tired. After so many shitty things happened today.

Tasks given by the bosses are done. Accomplished successfully or not...malas nk pk. dah buat yang terbaik....fuhh!

Added to the spicy-unpleasent-sucks flav I got earlier, something not so...so nice bang my head.Thanks dude. Feels like a big slap rite onto my face. Pang!!!!!!
It did make me awake from my sweet dream. Thanks again. No grudge.

Babe.....
You’ve done your best. You’ve tried your best to satisfy others. Let it be!
[herm…its me who judge it. Yet to hear from others]

Relaxing.......
Suddenly this meaningful song keeps playing in my head. Layan jap................

~And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you cant fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

[Iris by Goo Goo Dolls]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_vib4aNRtfU

"Fuhh...one big misery event has passed

Alhamdulillah... that's the only word dat my heart keep 'whispering' now. The event that i've been working on like h*** and crazy has passed. The event where it somehow 'gauge' my capabilities and competency in handling kinda big task from the big bosses.. huhuhu...
Thanks a million to Anne, Lia, Hajjar and the rest and especially to En. Megat, for all the guidance, support and assistance. I'll be dead without you guys! ;D To En. Megat, thanks for your patience in facing my shortcomings. I learn a lot from you. Arigato' ^^

That's all for today...a lot more to face tomorrow and onwards. May Allah grant me strength. Ameen..

"The beginning

Someone has inspired me to do blogging. Thanks to Dude. Im a bit late in this. Studied about blogging, bloggers once when I was at uni...an about to do thesis on this topic. But then, have to postpone. with wut reason? Erm...postpone? Let go actually.

Im new...those who drop by my simple humble page...guide me, correct me and may critic me..

Will write more...c ya!

"Be grateful with what I have

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area. Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?

Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.

Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???

Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.

Student : Well, ok then... wait for me...(walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later...

Student : I'm back.

Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.

Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.

Teacher : That's what happened in real life.

What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

~Lately, I just realized that I own so many greatful and meaningful things and people in my life.
How regretful I am for overlooking them and searching for something that I shouldnt. No one to be blamed. Blame myself.

~To all my babes and dudes...
In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember "Time Never Goes Back". It applies the same in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable career, therefore the morale is LOVE & grab hold of the opportunity that you have now, don't waste time!

Time is running out...it will never wait for us.